we choose our battles and paths.
there is a choice on what to dwell on and what to let roll of your shoulder.
there is a choice on who we allow to control us and who we can overcome.
there is a choice on what to do with your future, but the choice starts now.
there is a choice on when to move on and who to let go.
overtime i have given out my heart to so many, that i have nothing left to give. i'm worn down, torn up, used and abused. I'm a strong girl who can and will overcome any hindrance that comes my way. trouble is, rightnow i feel like i'm drowning in a mess of tears from the wounds on my heart throbbing more than ever. i finally thought i had found what i have been looking for for so long, andi couldnt have been happier. little did i know that its just not my turn to have true happiness just yet.
sure its dissapointing, but its not going to prevent me from being the confident person i was before. its their fault for not realizing who they had in their arms when they had it. i'm not going to take someone begging forgiveness on their knees, i'm not going to take a "sorry" typed in a text. its when your in the wrong that you step up your game. i understand that they can't face me to tell me that they are leaving me behind, but honestly all respect goes out the door when you can't do so. confrontation is just a part of life that you have to expect. its the non-closure that kills me the most.
i'm laid back and believe in second chances, but there is a point and line that is crossed way to often for me to be lenient anymore.
i hear "your perfect" and "your amazing" far too many times to even believe it anymore. a wise girl listens but doesn't believe and for now on thats what i intend to do.
sure this all may sound bitter, but i have every right to be.
i'm closing up shop, recovering, giving myself time to build up back into the person i want to be.