jumping to conclusions...its what i do.
saying "no i'm fine really, its ok"...its what i do.
coming up with a rationalization for something i do wrong...its what i do.
always wanting what i can't have...its what i do.
setting myself up for a letdown...its what i do.
i have seemed to find a pattern in my life, paved by my same habits and ways.
making sure everyone is happy before i am...its what i do.
caring too much...its what i do.
going beyond the call of friendships and relationships...its what i do.
trying to be everything a person wants...its what i do.
always being there for the friend that doesn't deserve it...its what i do.
i don't want to have to change myself, for once... i want to stop being told i'm amazing: when only left behind because i'm not amazing enough. just, i guess to be honest, i'm invisible.
short entry and to the point, bc when i looked back at my last one i noticed how i talked myself into circles and i don't even know if it made sense.
at this point...nothing in my life makes perfect sense anyways, all random and full of the unexpected. i'm happy. i really am, i have a lot to look forward to, and this past month...has been a little bumpy, but none the less...amazing. i'm just frustrated and stressed with A LOT of things right now and its making me bitter. and i don't want to be like that. i want everything to fall into place, so just going to take it with one challenge at a time.
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