i won't run when it looks like love

I live a dream.
i'm too scattered for my own good
life is a challenge i live for embracing. bring on the hindrances....i'm fully ready to dominate.

life moves so fast with no time to catch up..theres so much i want to do, so many people i want to hang out with, so many tests i should spend quality time studying, so many events i want to attend, so many places i want to be.

reality check: i'm only one person, so here comes the choosing. what is it that is going to get me to my happiness? i want to pause and run around embracing each aspect of life.

dream: fashion designer in paris...bundles of money to take over the slack due to my stupidity, and the proper guidance to get me all of the above.

reality check: i can't afford life....but who says i can't be designer in france?

dream: im fully dressed ready to conquer with my shield on tight, no one is going to change how i feel about myself

reality check: i always come back, twisted in all sorts of directions crawling for a simple hand to pick me back up.

its hard to define the line between the ideal world i wish to take a part in and the reality thats placed right in front of me. Am i blind? because i just don't see it. living vicariously through the ones who live the life i wish i had. But i need to realize that what i have..is beautiful and i need to appreciate the good within the bad.

i wrote a while back...about those moments..that stops time, and you look back and feel the emotion and remember who you were with. well...i FINALLY had one.
driving down 441 windows down, beautiful day, sister hazel "change your mind" playing. and for that simple 60 seconds...life stopped..i looked around...and realized that once again..i can breath and smiled. that everything will be ok. with all the experiences i've had to accomplish, learn, and struggle through..if anything i now know that you just have to keep moving forward. because no matter who likes you, who doesnt, what mistakes you make, what accomplishments you've conquered...life still moves and you have to move with it.


reality check: life... is going to be just fine. and its just going to take a little patience and understanding to realize that everything happens for a reason. watch your signs...they are a lot bolder than you think.