so this is it.
this is one of the moments where they say for a brief second time stands still, you take a look around and realize that when you come back to reality to take your next step...your surroudings change. its called transition. packing all my memories into a box, looking at all the photos of the amazing people and times that i've had these past years. I always talk about how ready i am to move on and get my college life started....but now that its here...i don't want to let go. friendships will never be the same, your past is the past and thats a hard piece to swollow. I need to accept it as what it was.. there are so many new memories to make..new friendships..new relationships..new opportunities. but i've never been one to accept change easily. Don't let the spontanious actions and shift in choices fool you. Honestly i think this is me writing in fear..so take a good look everyone...this is me at my weakest moment.
I feel like the walls are closing in on me. the pressures on...8 days left to take it all in. Then i will be in over my head. I know i'm strong enough to make it out to breath....Its just this last step thats been so difficult. letting go has never been my strong point though.
but im acting like this is the end...yet its only the beggining. I'm acting like i will be all alone..yet i'm going to be surrounded by a few old and new people...and i know there are those who will be here when i return.
so now that i've talked myself through this throughout the blog.... Im ready to take the leap into the unknown and difficult. this is an invitation long overdue to accept.
roswell has gotten to be too small of a town for me..so i'm ready to make my biggest escape yet.
i guess this is a short entry...but honestly right now school is all that is on my mind...well i guess that and a few other things.
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